I’m numb

I haven’t been myself lately,
I feel quite lonely, frankly.
All I have left from you
Are my memories, sad and blue.

You won’t ever feel like I feel,
But my love for you was so real.
I know I had to let you go
So you don’t have to die so slow.

All I have now is the pain,
So I am crying in the rain.
Sometimes I find myself numb
And I feel literally quite dumb.

I feel like I have lost it all
My friend, my love, my evermore.
Inside I am just a rag doll,
Drowning my bitter in alcohol.

We always run from those
Who love us the most.
We are scared to let others in,
To afraid to know where to begin.

Never let anyone to get close
So we let our hearts to froze.
In the end all that is left
Is a love that never was confessed.

We were going through some test,
Neither one of us could do their best,
When I’ve forgotten all the rest,
I remember our time was the best.

A New Year has come
And you are so far.
You are always in my heart,
And how could you be not?